More Side Effects

The side effects continue!! My throat is now soar again. Eating is starting to hurt. My mouth has sores and my tongue is sensitive. The bottom line is it hurts to eat almost anything. Of course ice cream and popsicles feel good.

I am also getting blisters on my feet. I know it is kinda gross to talk about but that is what is going on. It hurts to walk now.

I know I have said this before but I will say it again. Pain is not fun. It really gets into your head and wears you down. While in pain is mentally exhausting. Even with Alek and Kath there it is tough to always stay positive. I don't like not being able to do certain things. I don't like being limited in what I can do without feeling pain.

I am very anxious to have my follow up appointment next week. I am not sure what I will do if the results are not positive. I am so hoping this drug works. I don't feel like having to travel into Boston (Dana Farber) to take part in a clinical trial. Plus, if my counts don't go down, I have to stop the chemo and wait four weeks as a cleansing period. It is very scary to think that my counts could sky rocket even higher over this period. When the Prolactin counts rise the tumors increase in size and numbers. I am just so scared, so scared.

Well it is 1:30pm and I am tired from the weekend. Alek did not feel well and did not sleep well. So I think I will take my daily nap and catch up on some sleep.

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