Saturday, March 21, 2009
Week off coming to an End
Alek is really starting to talk more. He is really using Mama and Dada more often. He also just added Bye Bye to his 3 word vocabulary. It is pretty cool to hear them start to speak, especially when he said "bye bye Dada" the other day. That was a special moment.
Other then that there is not much going on. I am starting my chemo on Monday again. So I will update you if I hear anything else.
Over and out.
Kris
Sunday, March 15, 2009
End of Cycle One
I ended my treatments for my first cycle on Friday. Now I have a week off and then start up again next week. The good thing is then second cycle does not have any 10 hour days. They are all 3 to 5 hours depending on blood counts. I have not been feeling the greatest lately. I have been tired and nausea. I have just been feeling blahhh. The one thing that will be very interesting to see is what the Prolactin level will be on Monday. Like stated in earlier blogs, this will give us an indication if the drug is working.
Otherwise I have been down mentally. I kind of feel like I am on an Island by myself. I have been feeling like I am the only one fighting this fight. In reality I am but in reality I have a huge supporting cast that is helping me fight this fight. I don't know why I feel the way I am feeling I just do sometimes. I guess sometimes I just get tired of feeling like crap on a daily basis. I am tired of waking up tired. It just wears you down when you are already worn down. It is also depressing not being able to do what regular people do. I want to go Skiing. I want to go to the gym. I want to play soccer. I don't want to be stuck in my house. I know that Kath feels the same. She wishes we could do more things but with the way I have been feeling lately it is just impossible to make plans to do something. We just don't know how I will feel that day. We also cannot do many physical activities like hiking, walking, swimming and more. It is just one of those things that come along with having cancer and a hip replacement. I also wish that I could get in better shape, I have been saying this for years but I never seem to be able to find the time and the energy to work out. I am sick of getting tired after walking through the mall. Well I am sorry to bore you with many things you already know. It is just the thoughts and emotions I am feeling right now.
I spent the weekend with my Parents while Kath spent the weekend with hers. The reason is I had to be at Dana Farber on Friday and Saturday. We had a good time and I appreciate the support my Dad has given me through the first treatment cycle. It has not been easy but I love him and I know he loves me. Thanks Dad.
I missed Alek and Kath. Alek got his first hair cut, kind of. The only hairs that were cut were on the back of his head near his neck. If we did not cut it he would have had a mullet soon.
Well got to go get some snooze time.
Later Skaters
Kris
Monday, March 9, 2009
Treatment Update
Otherwise I am feeling OK. The side effects don't seem as bad as they were in the beginning. However, I know that can change each treatment, but for now I am pleased with how I am reacting to the chemo. At the start of the second cycle I will also find out, to some degree, how the treatment is working by testing the Prolactin. We most likely will have to wait untill the end of the second cycle to really see if it is working but there may be some indication of how it is working after the first cycle. Let's hope for the best.
Alek has been doing OK. He is still battling colds and ear aches. I feel so bad for him. I am hoping this will come to an end soon as the weather gets better. He is still my little guy and I love him so much. He is also a really funny guy. Sometimes the things he does put me into hysterics. Sometimes the things he does drive me crazy, but I guess that is what parenting is all about. No one said it was easy. I just wish I had more energy to really play with him. I can get down and play with him for a while, but then either the pain or fatigue hits me and I have to take a break. I hate that, but to him I am "Dada" and hearing those words come out of his mouth is the best thing in the world.
Yesterday, I spoke to my friend Eric, who I met at the LIVESTRONG summit. Every year he runs 33 miles to raise money for various cancer organizations. He has informed me that he will be running for me this year. I am deeply honored and thankful for this gesture. Eric is a testicular cancer survivor and he is in remission. He dedicates his life to his family and friends. He is an amazing person and a great friend. I will be posting more information about the run in the next coming weeks. Please keep an eye out for this. Thanks ERIC!!! Love you like a brother!!
Kris
Sunday, March 1, 2009
The Power of Drugs
Well I had to get another blood transfusion today because the treatment is kicking my ass. I can only hope this is a good sign that the drug is working since is affecting my blood counts so hard. The doctors say that this sometimes will happen. Strong side effects often mean the drug is working. This is not science or does it have medical proof. It is like a wife's tail. Let's hope those wives are right. They are most of the time. At least mine is (ha ha ha). I also had an MRI to rule out the spinal cord is not being compromised and is not the source of the pain. The results were positive; however there are still large tumors at the top and bottom of the spine that could be causing the pain and are dangerous. I am hoping I don't need further radiation or surgery and can continue on this trial to see if it works. My docs in Dartmouth will review the MRI and give me their opinion. For now we go forward with the trial until further side effects or pain stops me from doing so. Thank to everyone who had offered rides and helped me get down to Dana Farber including my dad (Boris) and Jack Walsh. Cathy, Kathy and Marilyn I look forward to you helping me the next couple of weeks.
I love you all and can't wait to see you in the spring as it become more fun to get together. Easier also.
Kris "The Crazy" Austrian
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