End of Cycle One

I ended my treatments for my first cycle on Friday. Now I have a week off and then start up again next week. The good thing is then second cycle does not have any 10 hour days. They are all 3 to 5 hours depending on blood counts. I have not been feeling the greatest lately. I have been tired and nausea. I have just been feeling blahhh. The one thing that will be very interesting to see is what the Prolactin level will be on Monday. Like stated in earlier blogs, this will give us an indication if the drug is working.

Otherwise I have been down mentally. I kind of feel like I am on an Island by myself. I have been feeling like I am the only one fighting this fight. In reality I am but in reality I have a huge supporting cast that is helping me fight this fight. I don't know why I feel the way I am feeling I just do sometimes. I guess sometimes I just get tired of feeling like crap on a daily basis. I am tired of waking up tired. It just wears you down when you are already worn down. It is also depressing not being able to do what regular people do. I want to go Skiing. I want to go to the gym. I want to play soccer. I don't want to be stuck in my house. I know that Kath feels the same. She wishes we could do more things but with the way I have been feeling lately it is just impossible to make plans to do something. We just don't know how I will feel that day. We also cannot do many physical activities like hiking, walking, swimming and more. It is just one of those things that come along with having cancer and a hip replacement. I also wish that I could get in better shape, I have been saying this for years but I never seem to be able to find the time and the energy to work out. I am sick of getting tired after walking through the mall. Well I am sorry to bore you with many things you already know. It is just the thoughts and emotions I am feeling right now.

I spent the weekend with my Parents while Kath spent the weekend with hers. The reason is I had to be at Dana Farber on Friday and Saturday. We had a good time and I appreciate the support my Dad has given me through the first treatment cycle. It has not been easy but I love him and I know he loves me. Thanks Dad.

I missed Alek and Kath. Alek got his first hair cut, kind of. The only hairs that were cut were on the back of his head near his neck. If we did not cut it he would have had a mullet soon.

Well got to go get some snooze time.
Later Skaters
Kris