A Poem written by me in 1999

Here is a poem I wrote in 1999. It was during those 2 years I spent in bed not knowing what the next day would bring. I remember writing it, but I had not idea that there was a copy of it anywhere.

Today my mom sent me this poem and I would like to share it with you. The crazy thing is many of the same thoughts I had then, I have now. So here it is.

The Fight

By Kristofer P. Beinder

1999

Everyday I FIGHT

I FIGHT in a way I hope you will never understand

Some days, I take a step or two or three forward, and it feels GREAT

Other days, I get BEATEN down like one of Mike Tyson’s opponents

But the difference is that I get up

I get up no matter how hard

I get up beat

I get up no matter how much it hurts and

Believe me it HURTS

Words cannot describe what

I have been through the last year

Many “tears and lots of fear”

Some days I sit in my bed and all it is “tears and fears”

I have to simply “shout and let it all out”

Support is all someone has for when they are down

A person who is down wants you there with them every moment

Because they are alone….they are alone

The notion that “everybody is ruling the world” but me hurts

And I must realize nothing lasts forever.