Relaxing Day

Sunday. A day of relaxation. We were able to sleep in last night. We are still tired, but at least we were able to sleep in. I still am amazed at how the human body can go from sleeping a consistent 6 to 8 hours a night to a consistent 4 hours of broken sleep and work. It really does amaze me. I can honestly tell you that when people say get ready to loose sleep, they are not kidding one single bit. WOW. WOW. However, I know there is no substitute for it. There really is not. The joy one gets from looking in the eyes of their baby is unique like no other feeling. So many of have experienced it and so many of of still will experience it.

I just also wanted to start to talk about some of the topics that are part of my daily life. These are some of the topics I may choose to include in some writings in the future of my book. The book thing is a dream and I would not even know where to begin and what to talk about, but I do think I have a story. Just what angle. What would the goal of the book be is so hard to even get a handle on. Where would I start? What format? What do I include? What? What? What and more Whats? Then How? How? How? How? Well I might have time. If any of you had any thoughts on this, I would love to hear from you on it.

I had talked about the "Food Groups of Cancer Survival" a couple blogs ago. I am going to just brain storm a few of these groups right now and then ask for feedback and comments.

1. Positive Attitude: We all know I would not be here if it was not for the positive attitude. All though it is definitely not always there, I find it. I find it somehow and this would be the staple in the food group.

2. Support: I have the best support group in the WORLD. There is no doubt about that. You all are the most amazing group that could ever help someone get through what I am going through. The emails, the phone calls, the inspirational talks, the man this really sucks, and all the financial help we have received is priceless, truly priceless. I can only hope that Kath and I can get through this. I know we are going to have to sell our house we have put so much sweat and tears into. I am not sure how long I will have my job. So financially I am very concerned and probably have never been so concerned in my life, with Alek here. It scares the living shit out of me to be honest with you. All your life you go to school, you do things in life to set yourself up to be a good citizen so you can get a job, get married and have a kid. All of these I never thought would be possible 8 years ago when I was dying are now reality. I have come so far and worked so hard, I just want to be able to provide for my son and give him a better life then mine, not harder. Sorry for the tangent, but I guess the bottom line is that it still comes down to being supported and supporting others is a major "Food Group" for a cancer survivor. It is important to not only get support but to give as much as so can.

That is a start and some more as to what is going on here. I am tired and in a little pain. I have not eaten in about 15 minutes so I better get something to eat. Seriously, I can not stop eating. It is ridiculous. Scary. I am blowing up like a balloon and all I can do is just watch it happen. I am seeing my Docs tomorrow about it and hopefully they can help this.

Well love you all.

Thanks Betty and Frank for letting us stay with you for the next two weeks. We appreciate your support and love you guys.